and not saving money for sch fees and stuffs.
what she said was quite true,
im spending way too much money than what i could actually earn.
i used up every single cent of my pay,
no savings for sch fees or for personal use.
i'm too lazy to work,
im immature to think about my future and not saving money.
all i know is shopping, play, and sleep.
Zoe was beside us, and she started talking to me too.
She give me some advice on how to save money.
Nearly teared, but i hold them back.
A big thanks to Zoee & especially Sis,
im sorry for being immature and not listening to you.
i know you cared for me,
and despite all your scoldings and lecturing,
you meant well for me.
I find it too mushy to talk to you face-to-face.
i can only express all my feelings here.
Throughout the 17years,
we've quarrelled, teared, talked, played, laughed,
had our fun being together as a family.
In the past, i rly dont understand why you can be so nice to your friends,
and being so fierce&strict to your sis most of the time.
I mean the way you talk to ure friends,
and the way you talked to me.
Frankly speaking, i hated you for doing that sometimes.
But as time passes, i realise that you were fierce to me
because you wanted me to learn.
you were just being serious.
There are times when you talked to me nicely too,
and i rly enjoyed all those heart-to-heart talk with you.
Though we might not talk as often at home,
or we might be selfish in some ways,
quarrelled, being unreasonable,
i stil love you as my sister.
i dont want to remember all the quarrels we had,
for thr's no overnight grudge between sisters, isn't it?
Lastly, what i want to say is,
sometimes the way you motivate me/lecture me rly very disheartening.
Take yrt for example,
when i said i want to work for every fri&sat of the month,
you quickly shoot me back
by saying those discouraging words like i can't do that or things like that
rly hurts me..
When i rly planned of doing that,
and by saying simple sentences like that,
you make me lose all the motivations seriously..
Nevermind that anymore,
what more important is,
i've decided to work hard this holiday like what you said,
and if possible i will prevent any quarrels..
I Love you sister ((: